Tuesday, August 14, 2007
I saw ur blog and called u immediately after reading it. But u didn’t ans.. I was worried.. wad would happen to us next? wad will we end up as? frens? lovers? or worst none? I really hope the worst wouldn’t happen. I really hope tat we could write our a fairytale together hand in hand. I rmb hearing u n xiaowei saying before bout u 2 taking turns to hold on to ur frenship. maybe we could implement this too? Anyway even if u got no faith in urself holding onto a relationship for long. U still have to trust me. i promised u before long time ago that I will be there to walk thru everything and be someone u can place ur heart 100% wif. I also promised u that I will hold on to ur tightly n nv let go when “that” day comes. The things I promised u then was not said for fun. I really meant it. A man’s word is wat a man shall stick to. All the promises I ever made I will nv forget them.
If we really get together like xiaowei said our FLP lines will be messy. Frankly speaking I don’t care bout this now. There was once I was considering wat would happen to FLP when we get together n I finally sorted it out. U may say im stupid. or Im foolish. im willing to give up anything I have for YOU! I cannot be selfish n make u think the same way as me. whatever decision u make I will respect it. Although I say tat, but deep down in me I really hoped we can be together. When the day we get together we shudnt be afraid of quarrels and arguments, they act as a tool to strengthen our relationship. Tats wat I tink. Its the hardships tat brings a couple closer n get to know each other better. No matter wad happened I will still sit down calmly n think of how to solve our problem instead of instiating breakup. Breakup was not even in my mind when I tot of being together wif u. I even dreamt of us bai tou xie lao.
Im very sure tat im in love with u. if one day u were to disappear from my world. I dun see anymore meaning in life. Life is no longer meaningful anymore without u. you already became a part of me. losing u is as good as losing my life. No matter wat happens in our upcoming route. I will hold ur hand tightly n walk thru it wif u de. Promise me u will do that too k?
I noe I said before tat I wont wait for a person too long, and ur heart ached when u hear tat. I can really tell that im important to u. I wanna tell you tat yes I did say tat before. BUT! BUT! BUT! It was before I got to know wats “LOVE”. You taught me wat love is. How does it feel to love someone. The sorrows that love gives. The love philosophies. A lot a lot a lot I cant imagine. I will not treat you like wat I used to be. As in wait awhile for the person. Time is not in my dictionary while waiting for you what matters is that I know I love you. And tat is all I need to know to sustain me from waiting for you. U said tat u’re afraid that u’re gonna lose me sooner or later. I can tell u that its not true. Its not like wat u think. Im never gonna leave u. but would u leave me? would u stay by me forever? Would u? I believe u would..
You said u dunno who to choose. Choosing anyone would hurt the other party. But did it come to ur mind tat if end up u didn’t choose any. U would be hurting all 3 parties instead of 1. u noe that we both love each other. If not y would we care so much bout each other n even tell each other how we feel all the time. We said we promise to tell each other how we feel everytime. But to me. the promise didn’t really existed. It was on our own accord that we’re telling each other how we feel because we care bout wat the other party is thinking.
This is the first time im blogging and I didn’t expected my entry to be full of feelings and what I think. I hope u will be able to see all these. Writing this blog n listening to the song playing at your blog the lyrics really captured my attention. I can say the lyrics are the things I wanna express to you (written below)
Cause here's my promise made tonightU can count on me 4 lifeCause that's when I love uWhen nothing u do can change my mindThe more I learn the more I loveThe more my heart can't get enoughThat's when I love uWhen I love uNo matter what. . . .
you will never b replaced <3.
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