Saturday, December 8, 2007
After reading your blog, i really hate myself now.. hate myself for not treating the person i love well.. hate myself for not caring for your feelings.. hate myself for always hurting u numerous time.. hate myself for not being there for u.. hate myself for everything and everything.. in short IM A FAILURE!
Looks like i portrayed a VY VY VY VY VY VY VY VY VY VY bad image on u alrdy.. i dun blame u for tat cause its all my own doing.. i caused all this.. i dunwan us to remain tis way.. i will not let games control over my life.. i will i would i MUST not.. Games cant spend my life wif me.. but u will.. frens may not stay wif me forever.. but u will.. frens may not be there for me when i need someone the most.. but u will.. IM BEING SO FOOLISH for treating u so bad.. i tot i was balancing well between my frens and you.. never did i noe i hurt u so bad.. so bad tat u couldnt even fall asleep crying the whole nite.. so bad it opened a wound long kept in ur heart letting me worsen it..
I noe no matter wat happens we will figure it out and hold hand in hand braving all challenges cause tats wat we really wan to! we wan to be wif each other forever.. theres a few things here in which i wan to do for u.. but i wont wan to say it out so obviously.. empty talk is nth. wad i wan to show is wif actions.
1) (space)zfd vlf hlj skgn z.. (space)h ndzfg
2) cl (space)h (space)dfh (space)dxg (space)d(space)df gl njfg hlj zbzk(space)
3) :jg hlj k(space) (space)j(space)(space)df l(space)d :>z(space)d k(space) (space)h ndzfg
Its ok if u dun understand wat the 3 things r.. but i will tell u in future.. hope we can get back to normal soon.. will do my best not to let u have negative feelings again..
you will never b replaced <3.
6:01 PM
